Stressed, overwhelmed, exhausted… that’s what I’ve been for almost a full week now. All lot of awful things have happened to my family in the past week. It’s pretty ridiculous all the stuff that has piled on at once. They’re not my problems per se so I’m not going to go into detail. If you are a praying person though my family could use a few.
The thing is, it’s wearing me down. I am trying to be Super Women and be the strong one for my family because I know they need me. I love them all so much, I would literally do anything for them. I’m living with my sister right now so I can help take care of her boys. I want to be there for her and I love her and her boys to death. It’s just been hard. I’m extremely tired and all I want is to snuggle up in my own bed with Joel and Phoebe. Two small boys that have just had a pretty traumatic experience can be really hard to handle at times. Luckily they mostly make up for the hard times with sheer cuteness.
Joel has been so great and understanding through all this. He has to stay at our house and work but he hasn’t made me feel bad about staying out here with my sister at all. Thankfully none of the problems have to do with our marriage, we’re still every bit in love as we always were. I can’t wait to go to sleep and wake up with him every day again.
Speaking of, I need to get more sleep. I think that would help a lot. Normally I sleep a lot. I’m the kind of person who needs 9+ hours of sleep a night. If I go one night on less than that I’m a zombie the next day. It’s been almost two weeks since I’ve had a full, restful night’s sleep. I feel a little like I’m dying. It makes it worse that I don’t know when the next time I’ll get a good night’s sleep is. It would be slightly easier if there was an end in sight.
No matter what I’ll make it through. Like I said, the problems aren’t technically even mine. I’ve taken a lot upon myself though because there’s a lot that needs to be done. I am vicious when it comes to protecting my family. They come first, even before my sanity sleep.
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