I’m just not feeling it right now. It’s so hard to find anything to blog about when the biggest thing going on in my life I can’t really talk about. My life is so full right now and somehow I have nothing to blog about, it’s very weird. I’m trying so hard to stay positive. I hate focusing on the negative and being gloomy and whiny all the time. I normally am a very happy person.

Being away from Joel is so hard on me though. I love sleeping next to him. I love seeing him when he comes home at lunch. I love eating dinner with him. Now, it’s like Christmas when I actually do get to see him. He came over tonight and we went to a movie together. That’s kind of our thing. Being away from him has made me appreciate every second we get to spend together. It’s kind of funny because I’m a flight attendant, it’s my job to be away from him sometimes. When I’m gone on a trip I miss him, but it’s not like this. Maybe it’s because I know there’s a limit to how long I’m going to be gone. Even if my trip gets extended I know I can’t be away from more than six days. I know there will be an end to me staying with my sister, I just don’t know when that will be.

Sorry if this is too mushy for you. It’s just what’s on my mind. I will be here as long as I’m needed but when I do get to be back home I’m going to appreciate it so much more.