Weekly Wesley: Two

He barely fits into that newborn sized outfit anymore. Only in length though, he still has yet to really chunk out.

This week I felt much more comfortable with the whole parenting thing. I still feel like someone might take him back at any minute. How can he possibly be my kid? I’m a mom? This is still so weird and unreal to me. I love him though, in a fierce, takes-my-breath-away, makes-me-want-to-squeeze-him-forever, terrified-of-anything-happening-to-him kind of way. I suppose that’s what being a mom feels like?

Breastfeeding is still going well. I even nursed in public for the first time. I did at what I felt was a pretty “safe” place, Buy Buy Baby. I mean, how can anyone get offended by breastfeeding in a baby store, right? It went well and no one said a word. He still eats pretty much around the clock, if he’s awake, he’s eating but I don’t mind too much. There are times where I feel like I’ll always be buried underneath a baby but I know that can’t possibly be the case. People don’t carry around their toddlers 24/7, despite what people on Twitter would lead me to believe. So, I’m working on enjoying every moment of squishy baby cuddles because I know they’re not forever. And every once in awhile he wants or needs something that isn’t my boob. Like a diaper change. Based on the number of diapers he goes through I don’t ever have to wonder if he’s getting enough milk.

Sleep is still going well. He wakes up 2 or 3 times a night so I’m getting 2-4 hour stretches at a time. Can’t complain about that really. Last night he had an hour and a half crying session but it turned out to be gas related. I did overindulge in chocolate so I’m guessing that was the culprit. Once he had not one but two very dirty diapers he finally ate and fell asleep for the night. He still only really sleeps if I’m holding him or he’s pressed up against me, although every once in a great while he’ll sleep somewhere else. He actually takes his best naps in his car seat, which I can’t complain about at all. We somehow got a kid who loves to sleep in the car. This bodes well for future travel. Yay!

We got a new pediatrician this week. Not because we disliked the other one but because we got a letter from our insurance saying we’d picked someone out of network. That insurance thing is a whole fiasco that I may or may not take the time to write about. Let’s just say for now it was a giant headache. Thankfully I love the new guy that we picked. He was very supportive of me breastfeeding, saying it’s the best thing we could be doing for Wesley, even better than vaccines. The last pediatrician gave me formula samples because Wesley had lost slight more than the “normal” 5% of his birth weight. This pediatrician said that as much as 20% is normal for breastfed babies and since Wesley is gaining weight slowly but surely he’s not too concerned. We do have to go back again this week to check Wesley’s weight. I’m hoping he is at least up to birth weight this time so we can stop going in every week and switch to just monthly visits.

Joel goes back to work tomorrow. Sob! That’s all I have to say about that.

Other Milestones:

• We had our first little outing with Wesley. It was a quick trip to the grocery store so Joel could look for some Mountain Dew in glass bottles. The man may be a bit addicted to Mountain Dew.
• Wesley retook his hearing test since he failed one ear at the hospital. Thanks to a very patient audiologist and me nursing him through the whole thing he passed. Yay!
• We got a new swing for Wesley (thanks to Joel’s mom) and he actually sat in it for a couple of 10 minute stretches. Kid still prefers being held over anything else but it nice to have a place to set him down so I can do quick things like pee or brush my teeth.
• Wesley is getting better at tummy time. He doesn’t cry as soon and he is turning his head to both sides now by himself. Hopefully this means the weak side of his neck is getting stronger.

Ermahgerd Whale!

(I stole this picture from Joel because it gives me the giggles. His face!)

I’m still working on the birth story. Several days ago I had a bit of a meltdown when I lost an hour’s worth of writing on it thanks to a hosting glitch. I was so upset I put it aside for awhile. As soon as I get another moment where my hands are free I’ll get back to it. This week starts my first week of mothering alone 8+ hours a day (hold me) so I’m not sure what the odds are of me getting a free moment any time soon though. Wish me luck!